3. SHOULD I STAY?
A story of giving up because there are no good men who do not cheat.
When a man (or woman) cheats, you have one of two choices: stay or leave. In the past, I left. Each time I was cheated on, I left. It wasn't even that difficult to leave and that makes me wonder if that is why he cheated. My emotions were not invested and I just moved on. Usually, I would stay alone for a while not bothering with anyone and just concentrating on finding the next fool to fall in lust over. I say lust because the first couple of weeks it was all good and then it got boring pretty quickly keeping up the interest.
So what's different this time? I keep asking myself why I am not walking away from this relationship and I came to the realization that I'm in love. (Sarcastic - Gosh, doesn't it feel wonderful to be in love?) Honestly, I was almost angry that I am so in love. How can I just accept what he did and move forward continuing to love him while everyone who knows me is telling me, "Leave the fool!" Even my therapist, (yes, it came to me having to seek therapy for this injustice), told me, "Well, maybe he's only using you." "Well, bitch, maybe you haven't been in love like me!"
I've come to a point where I feel there isn't a man out there who will not do me wrong so I will just stick it out and continue my fight to love him since I feel that once I leave him, another man will just move into my live, love me and do me wrong. Am I the "forever victim?" Maybe, but in the meantime, I will enjoy my life, forgive and eventually forget, and move on with loving the only man I have ever truly loved.
A story of giving up because there are no good men who do not cheat.
When a man (or woman) cheats, you have one of two choices: stay or leave. In the past, I left. Each time I was cheated on, I left. It wasn't even that difficult to leave and that makes me wonder if that is why he cheated. My emotions were not invested and I just moved on. Usually, I would stay alone for a while not bothering with anyone and just concentrating on finding the next fool to fall in lust over. I say lust because the first couple of weeks it was all good and then it got boring pretty quickly keeping up the interest.
So what's different this time? I keep asking myself why I am not walking away from this relationship and I came to the realization that I'm in love. (Sarcastic - Gosh, doesn't it feel wonderful to be in love?) Honestly, I was almost angry that I am so in love. How can I just accept what he did and move forward continuing to love him while everyone who knows me is telling me, "Leave the fool!" Even my therapist, (yes, it came to me having to seek therapy for this injustice), told me, "Well, maybe he's only using you." "Well, bitch, maybe you haven't been in love like me!"
I've come to a point where I feel there isn't a man out there who will not do me wrong so I will just stick it out and continue my fight to love him since I feel that once I leave him, another man will just move into my live, love me and do me wrong. Am I the "forever victim?" Maybe, but in the meantime, I will enjoy my life, forgive and eventually forget, and move on with loving the only man I have ever truly loved.
